Write a touching letter to your loved one. Love letter to boyfriend, beloved man

I'm not a Shakespeare in love and I can't write sonnets.
But one day I started writing letters to you,
when you ate, drank, breathed, just lived and forgot about me.
And these were the best moments in my life - to live with you!
If you ask: "Do I regret anything"?
I will answer: “No! You were in my life!
And during this time, one thing became clear -
LOVE, which so often tore me off the ground, returned to it.
Having learned to love, I feel like a person in whom the soul has awakened!
Thank God for everything! Take care!"

Nothing happens in our life just like that. The fate of each person, on the one hand, is predetermined, on the other hand, something can be changed in it. The main thing is to have time to do what is in our power. Every day of our lives is gone. Time, as I have already noticed, is the most precious thing that we lose after relatives and friends. It leaves us forever and irrevocably, smiling arrogantly. I don't know how much more I've got. But I'll try to have time to write you something. …

Letters to Beloved!

Love is not sent by God by chance! Probably, we needed to learn something with her help, cleanse ourselves, become better! Most likely, with the people chosen by the heart, we could become happier! Only they don't always choose us! Their feelings are not real. But, nevertheless, we definitely need to believe that every person has a soul mate, hope to find their happiness and place in this world, love and be loved!

In those rare moments when I took a pen and began to write. … Letters. From longing for you, I wanted to scream, but such an opportunity was not most often. There was only one thing left - to secretly pour out all your pain on a white sheet of paper. I didn't blame you for anything! My every day was a gift from God. Loving you has made me a better person! She gave me the strength to carry on.

It all started strangely, and continued the same way. … I did a lot of extra things. If only I could go back in time and fix something. But the usual happens to us every day, and what can be remembered is infrequent, because it’s not every day that people lose their heads from love! You were and still are my inspiration and the meaning of my whole small and eventful life.

I melt in you without a trace
And draw new strength! -
It's both painful and sweet
Suddenly be happy!

And let you believe in a miracle
Life is easy!
I will never forget you!
You are deep in my heart!

Even when we didn't know each other, I always knew that you were somewhere. We are simply lost in this vast world. You were already too dear to me then, because I felt you with my soul, and your image constantly stood before my eyes. Time passed, and you were not there. In life formed a long and tedious pause waiting. It was tiring! But sometimes I just didn’t want to spend too much on someone else. The strange world lived with its own, often empty and momentary interests, for which we, those people who tried to find in it something real, beautiful, eternal, were seen as strange. On the one hand, time flew insanely fast, on the other hand, it dragged on very slowly. There was always a painful choice on the scales. And for everything in the world had to pay. I chose waiting and loneliness instead of betrayal. These are not empty and pompous words. But for a long time I have not proved anything to anyone, because all our evidence is just self-deception, and they mean absolutely nothing for those who simply do not need us and are indifferent. And love covers everything if it has bestowal and patience. It happens that our worldly ideas about love, beauty, other things are limited and not always true, like crooked glass. They are banal, empty, have no soil in themselves and dissipate like smoke in comparison with spiritual values, virtues, beauty, love. But the lack of time and fuss make them almost inaccessible for many. But dear, dear, close, real - is born in the heart, in the soul, and tickles from one thought, which is disturbing and joyful at the same time that there is love! I listen to my heart, I know and rejoice that you are on this planet, whispering to you in a gentle voice through the open window towards the warm gentle wind: “Beloved, just be!”

Maybe it's better for some people not to show love for them so that they don't be manipulated and taken advantage of. But who sincerely and judiciously loves will not allow this. At some point in life, a person will still be pleased that he was so especially appreciated, deeply and devotedly loved, selflessly tried for him. Every person is not perfect: he makes mistakes, falls, rises. The main thing is to have time to rise, and so that this does not constantly repeat. If you value a person, you forgive him a lot, and if not, you look with hatred for any petty offense, without noticing the “log in your own eye”. Therefore, you are the best for me, that I just do not see the bad in you. We will not change the whole world, but we can change our hearts, and we must start with ourselves. Of the most destructive feelings, I know hatred and pride, and of the creative ones, love and kindness. That's why I try to love you always! Kissing you tenderly! Sophie

2008
- Hello my Sunshine!!!
Today I miss you more than I love or love, missing you, I don’t understand. One thing I know for sure is that in my thoughts you are with me all day. I love you as much as I don't want to!

Hello, sweetie!
Today, nothing has changed: again the evening and again I think about you, and I like it, because my life has become more meaningful with the advent of you! And at a distance we gained more than we lost - we began to trust each other and show our feelings, that is, we learned to love each other, hiding nothing and not being afraid.

2008
- My dear! It's happiness to love you! A unique feeling to put on rose-colored glasses and listen to birds sing, grasshoppers chirp, the wind rustles; feel the aroma of lily of the valley, rose, jasmine; to see through them a rainbow after the rain, the sunset of the sun going beyond the horizon, the smiles of the people around you, your face. And let me repeat myself, but I observe all this because you are in the world, my love! I want to breathe you! And sometimes it seems that my heart is beating for you, and I manage to deal with many problems in life just because there is you! There were still weak hopes and kind, tired dreams in my soul for our happy meeting soon. But the more time passes, the less it is believed. Thank you for being and being you! When you smiled, I wanted to rejoice with you, when I was discouraged, I had a desire to dry all your tears and drive the clouds away from your doorstep. Sometimes it was even scary to imagine what madness I was ready for for you. … But I know for sure that I would not have heard the singing of birds, the sound of the wind, I would not have seen the rainbow, the sunrise and sunset, I would not have felt the aroma of flowers and harmony within myself if I had not loved you! You appeared in my life, as if from nowhere, but not by chance, at the same time, providentially, like a gift. It's beyond my power not to love you. To the shudder of the soul this feeling! If you could now see my heart in a section, it would look like sparks from a fire flying in different directions. God bless you, my dearest person on Earth!

2008
- My good, hello! Today is a gloomy autumn day. But, if you remember, I love autumn. I am calmed and mesmerized by her cold, serene and measured spirit. Autumn colors are full of my imagination and suggest different thoughts. For example, many people think that true love died with the death of Romeo and Juliet. And I'll say, "No!" And, at the same time, I boldly add that I love you even more! Saying these words, my heart shrinks from fear for this bright feeling, and I want to hide it in the most secret corner! I want to explain this tenderness, but I'm afraid that in our world too few words have been invented for this. Or maybe no explanation is needed, because I feel reciprocity with an inner spark of intuition. Although you are far away, I always feel you near! The omnipotent, omnipotent feeling, sweeping away any obstacles and distances in its path, has always been called love on this earth! And it seems to me that I was not mistaken with its definition! Nobody canceled eternity, let it exist for our feelings! But everything on Earth has an equal chance of life. When people are together, they are twice as strong! And with God, who created us, we can cope with any difficulties! God bless us! I mentally kiss you. Sofia

02.07.2010
- My dear, hello! Anxiety dispelled the dream. It became stuffy, tears blinded my eyes, I went out to the balcony by touch, I wanted to roar sobbing. But I didn't know why I was crying. Probably from fatigue and hopelessness. At that moment, boundless love for you overwhelmed my heart. It is a pity that we do not choose her, but she chooses us. I stood silently and prayed to God for you! Bless, Lord, our world to be in peace, and those who love to be together! Save from all evil, and may love be unshakable neither by time, nor by distance, nor by circumstances .... The wind played with my hair, gradually drying the streaks of tears in my eyes, and my soul was filled with peace, I looked into the sky, where the moon had already appeared from behind the clouds, and the pink haze of the sunset dissipated. The street slowly plunged into the darkness of night. The trees stood in serene silence and silence, not moving. When it seemed that the whole city fell asleep, I began to write you a letter. Then, after all, I didn’t know that I would write them for many years, loving you more and more !!! Sophie

03.07.2010
- Hello, my dear sun! I miss you so much lately that I constantly look for passers-by in the crowd, although I understand very well, succumbing to feelings of disappointment, that you absolutely cannot be there, because you are in another country. But there are so many things that remind me of you! Tears fill the eyes, and only the wind knows about it, as it dries them on the go. And I remember the phrase from the movie “Hurry to Love”: “Our love is like the wind, you don’t see it, but you feel it”! Even far from you, I live with the thought of her, it gives me strength to hope for a miracle! Dad is with me all day today. But even next to a loved one, I feel sad and lack your warmth. It is said that there is an invisible spiritual connection between kindred spirits. And I made sure of it. Sometimes it feels like I smile when you laugh and cry with you! Unfortunately, time does not heal yet! Tenderness and sweet pain overwhelm my soul! Out of hopelessness, I place my hope only in God and pray: “Lord, unite, calm and rejoice our hearts!” The first stars have already appeared in the high sky. If you remember, I love the sky, that's why I look at it so often. Now it is black, not blue, with cumulus clouds like a few hours ago. Grasshoppers still chirp in the grass, the sounds of cars and the barking of dogs can be heard somewhere in the distance. It got cold. In the evening it looked like it was going to rain. Only he betrayed expectations. This summer rains are rare guests. Fresh air mixed with the intoxicating smell of mattiola, which opened closer to the night. How in such moments not to think about you, and not to dream of a kiss? Take care! I need you, of course, any, but better healthy! Enough with us and my illness. I am sure that every person deserves happiness, and especially loving people! After all, love is a part of God! And she is blessed in all her manifestations! I reluctantly finish writing. I feel that my soul has become easier, as if talking to you. I hug you tightly and tenderly! Your Sophie

05.07.2010
- Hello, beloved man! Days pass without you, but sometimes it seems that you are somewhere nearby. It makes me feel better when I look at the sky, as if the gentle features of your face are written on it. Today, just like yesterday, it is blue, without clouds, the blue in a matter of hours is replaced by a dark color, painting the tops of the trees black, and at its very top small stars light up, as if deliberately scattered by God's hand in their strictly defined order. Unfortunately, I didn't see much shooting stars this summer. But even these rare stars I managed to make a few wishes, and now I believe that our meeting will certainly be ahead. I know we need each other! And I really want our eyes to light up with happiness again. A strange miracle has been happening in recent days - a butterfly accompanies me everywhere, when I wrote you a letter the day before yesterday - it sat on a leaf with me, the next day it flew into the room, and today it accompanied me when I walked along the street. Butterfly - like a consolation to me from you. The wait gets harder every day. But I still love your lips, eyes, hands, I love just like that, for what you are, and more than I would like. Sorry if that's not right! May you be all right! Always yours, Sophie

28.07.2010
- Hello beloved!
It has been a long time since my last letter, considering that I wrote them to you every day. I want to reassure you that everything is fine with me, and my attitude towards you has not changed in any way, I miss you and, with sadness, I hope to see you soon. With sadness, because I'm afraid it won't be very soon. I've been a little unwell lately. But today, finally, I managed to overcome my fatigue, take a pen and scribble a few lines on a blank sheet of paper. I just want you to know that I love you for a long time like no one else ever! Kisses and hugs! Your Sophie

03.08.2010
- Hello, my dearest little man on Earth! Someone is languishing from the heat in the city, and I am because of our separation. Recently, I can hardly hold back tears, there is a terrible excitement in my chest, and there are almost no words to express how much I miss you! Forgive me, with my impatience, I am afraid that I will wear out my soul for you and for myself. Give me news about yourself as soon as possible, at the first opportunity. I love you always, and every day even more! I hug gently! Your Sophie

05.08.2010
- My dear, hello! At times it seems that there is nothing left in me, except for a huge faith and a glimmering hope for our soon meeting, and sometimes that these feelings have practically disappeared, turning into a continuous agonizing pause of expectation. Yesterday I heard a good phrase that you can't gain anything without pain. Probably, love and happiness also need to suffer in order to find out the price for everything and not destroy what you have received with such labor. It happens that I myself say smart things, I understand them with my mind, but not with my heart, I yearn and want to see you! I miss you next to me, your gentle eyes, kind words, gentle hands, calming self-control .... Your love! Let now my tenderness touch your heart and warm it, no matter where in the world you are! But the heart, after all, can not be deceived! I feel that love for you gives me the strength to live each new day and strive for something else. Thank God for what you are! I breathe in the air now, as if I breathe you, as if you are near, although it absolutely does not smell of you. I don’t know how to finish the letter, I want to say so much, but there is no point, because the essence is one, and you know about it. - I love you! I dissolve in this feeling without a trace. I hug you tightly, mentally kissing again and again! Your Sophie

29.12.2010
- Hello, sweetie! Winter has come for us, the magical New Year is approaching, with its new plans and hopes, which I really don’t want to come without you! Today, as for every holiday, I spontaneously chose a postcard for you with words that are a bit similar to those that I would like to say. I chose the usual postcard: with the image of a raccoon hanging on a branch, signed on the reverse side - come back soon, I won’t last long! And this is true! Happy New Year! May all your dreams come true! And the snowflakes of fluffy snow will kiss you for me! I'm finishing writing, I'm sorry, kitten, I'm going to have dinner, although I don't feel like it. Always yours, my sunshine, Sophie

12.09.2011
- Hello, my ray! Today I thought that our life is just a series of events and, of course, a journey. For many, it is long, almost around the world, with storms and calms, splashes and serene smoothness, while for others it is short, like a light breath of a breeze or a flapping of a butterfly's wings. Drops, uniting, form waves, waves - seas and oceans, and my feeling in patience and expectation grows stronger and grows day by day! Although, from this expectation and pain, I sometimes fall apart like an hourglass or splashes of water, but we know that Aphrodite was formed from the sea foam. So, maybe my expectation will bring its good fruit. I can't write anymore, tears fill my eyes. I will be waiting for you on the shore of a cozy bay of this fast river of life to love you in any of your manifestations, on a different horizon and section of the sea wave, more precisely - everything and always! God bless you! With love, your Sophie

24.10.2011
- My dear, hello! I got upset again. I took a pen, because my heart is whispering furiously inside so that I write you a few lines. Time flies insanely fast. Sometimes huge problems are solved in his stream, and sometimes they accumulate in a heap, and you want to destroy everything around. They say time and wine heal. I agree, although I am sure that there are exceptions to any rule. I suggest you have a drink when you meet at brotherhood, no matter how ridiculous it may sound, in order to wash down the unpleasant pain of separation. What can I say, I just missed you a lot. How are you there? Today I decided to test myself - mercilessly delving into my soul and heart, I came to the inconsolable conclusion that I still love you! And the days and nights ruthlessly run into eternity. And I don't know how to stop them. In general, autumn is like autumn, the evening is like one of many evenings. … But there were others when we stood in an embrace at the window at sunset, watching the birds frolic in the sky, and you gently brushed my hair from my shoulder, running your hand over my cheek. Just being with you was already a holiday! Therefore, hugging you again is a thought bordering on a cherished dream. The soul, unfortunately, ruthlessly whines. You better not hear it. Silence helps to understand oneself, and deeds distract from sad thoughts. Life did not break my spirit, on the contrary, it made me more resilient. I believe that everything will be fine! You are the meaning of my life, the sun that illuminates it! My best, I'm proud of you, and I don't want to give it to anyone! I love every cell of your body! You won’t believe it, while I confessed my love, my tea, for the umpteenth time, has cooled down. I am glad that in our time, smart people have come up with microwaves. I reluctantly say goodbye to you again. Until the next letter, dear! Your Sophie

08.11.2011
- Hello, my beloved man! I have you - and this is the main thing! Yes, love in this world is a heavy load, which, at first, you don’t want to receive, and then you don’t know how to save it. Why these fears, anxieties and worries? Is it not from lack of faith? Sorry! It’s just that everything is so out of time, unexpectedly, but perhaps it just seems, and now is the time for these experiences. After all, everything has its time. I sometimes try to understand something, although I still don’t understand anything completely. And sometimes, the more I try to understand, the more I get confused. … And the night descends on the city with its heavenly veil. I see from the window how it is getting dark around, and the first night lights appear. Every minute there are more and more of them, and they are simply mesmerizing. Yesterday I peered into the sun at sunset, which flared up over the bridge in a red glow, boldly reflected by glare on calm water, scattering its rays everywhere. At that moment, I wanted to write to you. Take care! After all, what will I have in this world without you? Bright sun and glare on the water? But you intuitively know that I love you more! Mentally always with you, as it is attached to you by the soul. I recalled Plato on this occasion: “Loving halves of one soul, separated at birth, will always try to find each other in this world! Love is stronger than attraction! Well, that's all I could say for now. Sorry for love! Hug you! Your Sophie

12.11.2011
- My dear, hello! Unfortunately or fortunately, we do not choose who we love. It is a gift from God or a random choice of our heart. But there is nothing random in the world. God is love! As if He sends a piece of Himself to those who are worthy to carry it, this is a great feeling in our world in order to somehow save it or make it better. "Without love, everything is nothing!" Love makes us better! But the uncertainty is depressing, there is almost no faith and hope left, only remembering you, I know that there is still love, and I don’t regret anything! You are a real miracle, I say sincerely! Over the past time, we have dedicated to each other an avalanche of feelings, clothed in words, daily thoughts, deep heartfelt experiences, thanks to this you are constantly with me, and I am with you; to say without exaggeration, I feel you with every cell of my body and love with every particle of my soul, as if you are near, at arm's length. Sometimes, I want to live with your tenderness and hugs. I remember that day, like now, when I almost disappeared into you, forgetting about everything in the world! But sometimes it seems like an eternity has passed since then. … I don’t know, of course, how many more letters I will write. All I know is that I grew up loving you. And now it is no longer a little naive, suffering from love, girl, but a wise adult woman, grateful that you were and are in her life! Thank God for everything! Kiss! Your Sophie

Hello, sweetie! Today is November 22, 2011. How are you?! I'm not very good without you! But in some ways I become more tolerant, probably smarter. Maybe in our time and not up to love?! And perhaps this bright feeling is the only thing that will help us survive in a cold world. There is a very good phrase from the movie "One Day": "Whatever happens tomorrow, we have today"! So I would like to live right here and now. And today the reality is this - two loving halves were lost on this huge planet, they were scattered in different parts of the world, but, oddly enough, there was something in common between them that connects the souls of both and draws to each other! And let us not drink tea together in the coming evening, let us not stand, embracing, in silence by the window, looking at the night lights of the city, let us not fall asleep, warming each other, let us not meet the dawn. But I know for sure when the city, tired of the bustle, plunges into the evening darkness, and in my room, except for the ticking of the clock, I will not hear the steps or the conversation of the neighbors, I will say your name out loud. And, falling asleep, again I will say that I love! God bless you, my dear! Always yours Sophie

05.12.2011
- Hello, my beloved sun! So much time has passed that sometimes I feel like separation just tears my soul apart. Unbearably longing for you! I understand that now the distance is burdensome, and then it will be necessary to protect love from temptations in this vast world. But, if we are made for each other, then we will be able to save everything that is real that binds us! Maybe you should trust fate! “Let love lead us to a brighter day to love you every day,” says one good song. Sometimes, I think that so many minutes of happiness have been lost, only then I realize that love does not always come to everyone, but ours, tested by time, endured in separation and hardened by difficulties, was born into the world and strengthened like hardened steel, which is now almost nothing is scary. You are my little miracle! And great happiness that you are in my life! Thanks for all! Sending a thousand kisses in the hope that they all touch you! With all my heart and soul, your Sophie

06.12.2011
Hello kitty! This winter evening I miss you again and I hasten to scribble a few ridiculous lines. I never realized before why I loved autumn so much and imagined our meeting at this particular time of the year. And when I restored some chronological dates in my memory, I realized that it was in the fall that we met once. Since that day, a lot of water has flowed, as they say, but the distance has not cooled the feelings, but only strengthened, leaving a deep desire to never again know the hardships of loneliness and the fatigue of experiences. Sorry for everything you've been through over the years! Looking for the culprit in this situation is simply stupid! I'm not angry with you and forgive, continuing to live with you! I love you like never before! I send my unspent warmth, mentally hugging! And yet, no matter how many letters I have already written, sometimes there is a feeling that I just have to write my best letter to you. With love, Sophie

28.12.2011
Hello my good! There is almost no strength to be without you. And ahead of a fun holiday and you need to look good. Love is a violent hurricane rushing about in the soul and driving you crazy. I dream of waking up on the first of January in your arms healed. But it is only dreams! Although they are also material, if they can be useful! May these extraordinary holidays fill your life with magic, fulfilling your cherished desires! I sincerely love you, my dearest little man on earth! Your Sophie

15.01.2012
Hello my precious bunny! I am writing to you again so that this thin thread between us does not break, and I see that I miss you very much, although I have not written for only a few weeks. All this time I was thinking how to live far from you, deeply in love?! And there was only one answer - just live, live on! Today burst into tears right in the hallway, coming from the street. I didn't even have the strength to undress. So she stood for some time in boots and a fur coat, leaning on the lintel of the closet, as if buried in your shoulder, swallowing the tears that ran down her cheeks, and her heart ached with violent pain, from which Corvalol did not help. There is no resentment, tenderness covered the sediment of sadness, but the days without you, lately, a little, really, have lost their meaning. I involuntarily remembered your face: now thoughtful, with a slight tinge of sadness, now glowing with a smile; and I really wanted to hug you, to feel that state of lightness in your hands, when the whole world fades into the background! The phrase of Edward Cummings involuntarily came to mind: "Trust your heart when the seas light up, and live by love, even if the stars have turned away"! Come what may, dear, if the heart protests, does not want to forget you and cannot but love! I send my tenderness with a thousand air kisses so that they warm you on this cold January evening, and your soul becomes more cheerful! Many hugs! Your Sophie

08.02.2012
As the day dissolves into the night, as the light absorbs the darkness in the morning, so I mentally dissolve in you! What would our world mean to me without you, your smile, eyes, hands, movements, desires and feelings? It would be empty and more pointless! Only by the grace of God does it still exist, because particles of someone's love are scattered in different corners! … The gentle rays of the sun break the ice on the river, the first flowers appear, nature awakens from sleep to life. Heat comes not only from the sun, but also from heart to heart, if it has it! So much time has passed, and I, after all, have not learned to live without you! Sorry! I need you about as much as every living thing on the planet needs oxygen! Take care! I hug you, kissing lips and eyes! Your Sophie

09.02.2012
My dear, now I'm watching the last episode of the film "Beetles" and crying, hugging a green towel, like your shoulder. Too bad we're so far apart! I heard the words of Zhukov's wife before her death and remembered you. I would say the exact same thing to you. She said: “I am your Guardian Angel. As long as you're alive, you'll be alive. If you knew how much I loved you, more than anything in the world, more sun, more stars in the sky, more than my life!” It’s impossible not to love you, neither fatigue nor emerging problems distract for a long time, fortunately, everything passes and will be resolved as it arrives, but the gentle sweet pain in the soul remains. Despite certain difficulties, I repeat, love makes me better! Far from ideal, of course, but much better! Thanks for being you! I hug you, my dear little man! God bless you! Your Sophie

25.02.2012
Hello my dear! Sometimes I want to give you a little of my time in order to have time to do some other things, but I can’t tear myself away for several hours, sometimes I sit over a letter until dawn, and then I struggle with sleep all day, often, and a headache. It’s just impossible not to think about you, you are my center of attraction, my inspiration! There are millions of people in the world, and my heart has been with you for many years, which seem like an eternity! I would like to know what's new with you today? Do you freeze from winter blizzards? Or is it just not threatening you in that climate? Anyway, hold on! I hope that not in letters, but someday in reality I will tell you that I love you. It remains to live until this bright moment! I believe in you and you! Kiss gently, my extraordinary little man! Just be! And smile now! You have a very beautiful smile! This is the end of writing, because tomorrow is my birthday! Make, please, only one gift, dream of me at night - I have long dreamed of hugging you tightly! Sophie

P.S. So that, sometimes, I don’t write to you in letters, the meaning lies much deeper, it is between the lines, you will understand this over time!

05.03.2012
I remember you, and the pain is so deep.
And I send you greetings with love from afar!
…..
I wish you peace at home
Peace to your soul!
My tired angel
I love you like this!
.....
Lie right in the heart
My simple lines
Kissing you gently!
And, nevertheless, I put an end to it.

08.03.2012
Today the sun shines differently
And the first flowers appeared. …
It's definitely worth celebrating this day.
After all, you are constant in my life!

26.05.2012
The days fly by like a flock of birds.
I don't notice anything around.
When I think about you, I can only breathe easily,
Even if you are far, far away.
You are like a ray of sunshine in my destiny,
Where every breath, believe me, belongs to you!

11.06.2012
Hello, my dear and most desirable person in the world! It’s almost one in the morning now, I haven’t written to you for a terrible long time, either from resentment, or from despair, or confusion and commotion of thoughts and feelings, I don’t know, but while everything has calmed down, I again want to pour out my soul overflowing with love. Trust me, I'm just a little tired. Love at a distance is unbearable. You can, of course, test your feelings. There has to be a limit everywhere. There is so much I want to tell you and remain understood. But feelings overwhelm and their essence is one - I infinitely sincerely love you! With this love and last hope, God keeps me on Earth. You give meaning to everything! Your breath somewhere in the distance gives me the strength to live. ... The morning almost merged with the evening, the rest is like work, everything, with rare exceptions, as if on schedule, it feels like my life without you is meaningless, it turned into a change of scenery, a series of days and nights, monotonous affairs, a long pause of waiting! You are like a logical conclusion to all this confusion! Although I am often convinced that love has no logic! And the less you wait for something, the more chances for success. God would give more composure, patience, strength and wisdom! But I rejoice for you and worry with you, I feel, even at a distance, with every cell of my body and tremble! Nothing matters to me but your happiness! Therefore, be happy! I promise not to harm. ... Tears welled up again, but I thought that I had already cried them out a long time ago. Only it’s impossible to forget, the heart constantly whispers that you are in the distance. I hug you tightly! I wish God's help in everything! May God bless you on all ways and roads! Your Sophie

17.06.2012
Hello beloved! I miss you again, in my thoughts and in my dreams, because I visit you every day! And you're far away and it's not clear what's great for you?! But, no matter how much I would not like to be next to you and take care of you, these are still too expensive desires. Therefore, nothing but letters remains, and one has to stupidly ask a question to which I am even afraid to answer: “Whom do I love more than anything in the world?”! They say that if you love a person stronger than God, He can take him away, because God is jealous. So you need to clarify - you are the first in my heart after Him! Much has already changed, part of the past has lost its meaning, but feelings for you have not cooled down. You have become a half of me, the connection with which I really feel. With all my heart I wish you well and prosperity! It is the heart that wise people on Earth, writers, tell to listen to, to remember the same Alchemist, poets, musicians - “listen to your heart, put your palm on your chest, this heart does not lie, forget about everything in the world”, the Bible, the most holy and wisest of books - "Where your heart is, there your treasure will be." And my heart is with you! Your Sophie

19.08.2012
Hello dear man! Evening has come, instead of walking in the parks and watching TV, I am writing letters to you, as if talking to you, in the calm atmosphere of a sleeping city. I don’t want to say that I’m doing something important, but I’m trying to do something special for you, so that you like it, surprise it, please it, remember it. I don’t want to load my problems, my path was not easy without you, but, nevertheless, your love helped me. Thanks for her! I wish You all the best! Your Sophie

10.10.2012
Hello my precious little man! I am writing to you again and I think that the letters are naive, but I re-read and see that they are tender and beautiful, and just like that, without feelings, you cannot write them, with all your desire. I can’t tell you anything new, I miss you just the same. Sometimes I feel very lonely, but I try to hold on. Sometimes unobtrusively, as if, by the way, I will think about you several times a day, I will mentally hold you near and just as unobtrusively let go, occasionally calling you by name. And you have one name - Beloved! No matter what, I try to understand you and justify. You are my anxious and even breathing, sadness and joy, smiles and tears. As I write, tears well up again. Sorry, I've mentioned them many times before. But the letters are new, and the tears every time too! Grasping at tiny straws of hope, I believe that everything will work out somehow! God bless you! Your Sophie

2013
Good morning, love! Our day usually starts with kind words! I want to continue this tradition. If I didn't tell you all day that I love you, you think the day was wasted. I remember how often you pretended and pretended not to hear something. Sorry, I got offended at times! Although I liked to repeat a few words that you yourself have known for a long time, from which your eyes light up, and the wrinkles on your forehead smooth out. Kidding! I adored you in different ways, in any mood, hoping that it would always be like this. But, as it turned out, nothing lasts forever under the moon! By the way, you didn’t have wrinkles, it’s too early for them! I also liked to see you in confusion, and then, understanding my plans and thoughts, smiling quite! In general, you already, of course, guessed, for five whole minutes I have been trying to explain to you how much I love! I confess that I have not always behaved correctly. But there is one weighty circumstance in my defense - when you love, there is no time to think, because feelings overshadow the mind! I fondly remember each of our telephone conversations, especially in the middle of the night or in the morning, each experienced meeting, when it happened to be nearby and glow with happiness! These were the most extraordinary moments of my life - since you appeared in it! Take care! You mean too much to me! Your Sophie

29.05.2013
Hello beloved! I don’t really want to remember the period when you were not around, filled with anything but shared shared happiness, but to forget it means to forget all the experience gained along with the suffering and difficulties that, in part, tempered and taught something . You probably want to know how I lived all this time without you? Only with the thought of you! This thought overshadowed the anger, despondency and fatigue due to the current situation. It was hard, but I fought, spiritually hoping that everything was the will of God! I lived as if you were always somewhere nearby, in the next room, opposite the house under construction, with your friends, on a business trip, so I imagined that today I need to be alone. As time went. ... I became wiser, more tolerant, even a little better, I learned not to be afraid of anything, to appreciate you more and cherish all the good things that connected us! Only one thing did not work out - to forget you or love you at least a little less than a couple of years ago! In the evenings, alone with rapture, I repeated your name! It has become for me the most desirable and beautiful in the world! In parting, I will only say that love transforms everything in its path! And I grew up loving you, as if enchanted! Over time, I realized that no one suffers from these feelings more than they gain! It would be a great happiness if there were suddenly more of them in the world! Now you know, dear, how to live without me - just like I lived all this time without you, as if you were there! I believed you! My life would be meaningless and empty only in one case - if it were not for you! In a hundred languages, I mentally repeat that I will love you forever, understand and forgive! These are not simple words! You wanted to never die, here's confirmation for you! My sincere desire was, of course, to die with you on the same day and hour, hearing your breath stop and giving the last kiss. But life is very unpredictable, and if it happens differently, you should always know and remember that I am with you - in your heart! Live like I'm just in the next room! And be sure to try to be happy! I always wanted us to be happy - together or apart! I dedicate all my warmest words to you!!! I hug you tightly!!! And I pray for you to God in my own words:

God bless you:
From unnecessary worries
From bad people
From redundant things!
From deadly passion
From every misfortune!
May God send you
Something I could handle!
Happiness, peace and love
May they be with you!
I wish you: kindness, warmth,
Let there be light where you are!

P.S. And in the city, at that time, a sultry spring reigned, like a real summer. Poplar fluff flew, people in their cars, irritated and puzzled by problems, were rushing into indefinite distances, I know for sure that she would look at all this and smile, because her letters flew to her Beloved! ...

EPILOGUE

Late one evening a phone call broke the silence of my rooms. I did not know then that after him my life would change too. At the other end of the wire, a middle-aged man spoke in a pleasant tired voice. Without much extra explanation, he asked me to be a nurse for his sick daughter for a couple of months. And without much further ado, I agreed.
It all started a long time ago, when I lovingly looked after my friend in the hospital, someone noticed me, asked me to sit after the operation with his relative, and then my phone began to migrate from one person to another. Unfortunately, the hospitals were always overcrowded and the calls never ended. My selfless sincere work eventually turned into a side job, as people always wanted to thank me for sleepless nights or some other good deeds. It became easier for me to pay for an apartment and loans, but I never set the price, people themselves gave as much as they wanted.
On the evening of another day, after my main job, I went to the hospital, at its gate I was met, indeed, by a pleasant middle-aged man with a tired voice. He briefly explained the situation to me. His daughter has been terminally ill since 2008. And, if before there were hopes, now they are gone, the doctors calmly repeated that she would live no more than a couple of months. The wife of this man died almost immediately after giving birth, so he raised the girl himself, without marrying a second time. By the way, the charming fair-haired creature with blue eyes was called Sophia. She just turned twenty years old. She was born in Russia but grew up in America, where she moved with her father a few years after her birth. And, oddly enough, now she was also dying in Russia. When the girl was diagnosed with cancer, her father transferred her to home schooling and often began to take her to various sanatoriums and clinics in many countries in search of a suitable treatment, which he never found, despite many promises and assurances. They traveled a lot and returned back to America, where their home was. One day new neighbors moved in with them. And Sophie developed a very warm relationship with a boy, almost the same age, from this family. After some time, he found out about the illness of his girlfriend and accepted it as it is, deep down still hoping for her possible recovery. Sophie tried not to disappoint him and hid many symptoms from him. After all her travels, she brought him souvenirs. Sometimes they called up, despite the long distances and expensive negotiations. Gradually the trips became longer and the separation more unbearable. Sophie didn't have a laptop. Feeling the first true love in her heart, Sophie began to write letters to a dear person, hoping to leave them for him after her. In the last year, Sophie did not write much, as she felt very ill and could hardly hold a pen in her hands. When she found out that I wrote poetry, she showed me the letters, asking me to type them on the computer and correct them. I promised her I would. They touched me to the core. Like her father too. Who, at first not knowing about their existence for many years, accidentally saw a scribbled pile of paper on a coffee table in the ward, when the girl was once again taken to intensive care. Sophie sent the guy just a few letters, after learning about her hopeless condition, she decided not to invade his life anymore, no matter how hard it was for her. She didn't even know if he was replying to her as they often changed countries and hospitals. But she always waited for news from him, dreaming of seeing or hearing Kevin once again in her life. At some point, the father decided to visit his wife's grave, and they lingered in Russia, where Sophie received this news.
Life is a strange coincidence. For some reason, it was me, among the large number of people in the huge city, who had to come to her ward and see the letters. She trusted me. I loved her like a sister. Father knew about Sophie's request to type letters and did not object. When she became ill again, we were next to the drooping view by her bed, surrounded by a doctor and a nurse. After the attack stopped, everyone calmed down, Sophie fell asleep, the doctor and nurse left, and Arthur asked me to talk to him in the hospital cafeteria over a cup of coffee, promising valuable information to continue the story of his daughter. He was excited, looked first to the side, then into my eyes, but, as always, he was firm and resolute.
“When I saw my daughter's letters,” he began, “I was stunned. I remembered here my youth, my wife, love. Sophie's illness occupied my almost daily thoughts, and I could never imagine that she had grown, especially in love, and so much. It turned out that thanks to this feeling she lived so long, being terminally ill. All these years she could not trust me, her only loved one. I separated them on the same day when I took Sophie to Israel for treatment. They hoped to meet, and I promised them one, hoping to return as soon as my daughter was a little better. But it turned out that I was lying. Sophie didn't get better. And I took her to Switzerland. Their connection was cut off. We couldn't believe it because Kevin was so affectionate and sincere with Sophie. But the silence on the other end of the wire and her letters going nowhere spoke of the opposite. She continued to wait for a letter from him, although the correspondence stopped several years ago, that I tried to cure her away from him. Bored, Sophie simply wrote to him, putting the letters in the nightstand to speak out and ease her heartache. But she always believed in him, for her there were no bad qualities in Kevin, except for positive ones. When I saw her letters, I realized how cruel and stupid I was. While she was in intensive care, I immediately decided to fly to America. Unfortunately, our neighbors moved to another state due to a job transfer from Kevin's father, which I could not have imagined at the time, and which immediately explained the silence on the other end of the line. The search for Kevin took a little longer. Several letters were respectfully preserved and given to me by the new owner of the house where our former neighbors used to live, Mrs. Hendrix. I realized that the guy did not receive and did not read them, especially did not know anything new about Sophie. Perhaps Kevin thought that she simply decided to disappear from his life, happily settling somewhere in another corner of the earth. And she waited for him and died. ... Thanks to my old connections, I found him. He recognized me and was surprised by the appearance, like a bolt from the blue. Literally, pulling him out of the company of school friends, I pushed him into an empty classroom and put a sheet and paper in front of him, asking him to write an answer to at least those two letters from Sophie that Mrs. Hendrix handed me and which I threw in front of him. Realizing at that moment that he was not to blame, he was still rude and could not help himself, because rage was seething in me. Of course, in Russia one could ask some student of the English faculty to write a letter, but Sophie would feel false and see an unfamiliar handwriting. Kevin was depressed after reading the letters. He silently wrote an answer, put the piece of paper in an envelope and handed it to me. Then, it seems, he began to cry over the letters, covering his eyes with his hands. But I vaguely saw it, as I was already rushing towards the exit. At the nearest post office I dropped the letter into a box, which arrived safely after my arrival in Russia a week later. This is what Sophie now squeezes with her weak hand on the hospital bed. I don't know what's in it, and I'll never try to find out without her permission. Sophie only said, smiling, that everything was fine, she knew about it. He probably wrote to her that he also loves her, and I am infinitely grateful to him for the smile of his daughter.
“You are a good father,” I said then. Not many parents admit their mistakes and try to really do something for the happiness of their children, continuing to be strangers, being blood relatives.
- Many parents want to change something - I'm sure of it, but not many succeed. After all, what can you do to make your children happy? Just to really know what to do!
He thanked me, saying that he felt better. Having finished our coffee, we decided to go up to Sophie's, but puzzled by the slight noise and commotion in the street at the gate, we decided to go there. It was six o'clock in the morning. Dawn was barely visible across the sky. A warm May morning promised a good day ahead. The smell of flowering trees wafted from everywhere. Sophie, in a nightgown, slippers and a gray coat, was in front of the hospital in Kevin's arms. Pink roses were scattered around them. They were quietly talking to each other about something, when suddenly she fell into his arms. Tears rolled down his cheeks, he unconsciously pressed her lifeless body to him. I have never seen Sophie's face happier than in those moments, it seemed to glow from the first rays of the sun. She seemed to everyone then from the outside just sleeping on the chest of a loved one. Arthur then asked Kevin how he found them. To which he replied that he had signed the envelope with the return address the last time.
More than a year has passed since this tragedy, and I still can’t forget the picture before my eyes: a guy in tears, as if trying to atone for his justified long absence with them, a gentle angel with blond hair played with a warm wind, and a happy face in his hands , crying father, hugging them both in the middle of scattered pink roses, sobbing staff around and unrealistically beautiful above it all in the sky a scarlet dawn.

P.S. Take care of love and loved ones while you have each other!!!

I decided today to give you my sincere confession. My letter is a sled that is flying without control on the ice, I don’t know where they will take me, but still I mustered up the courage to tell you this. You are the cutest and smartest boy I have ever met. When you're around, strange things happen to me. I begin to blush, stutter, my arms and legs go numb, and my knees give way. When I go to bed and close my eyes, I immediately see your face, I think about you, I sort through all your words and gestures in my thoughts. I'm always very interested in you. And every day this feeling in me is stronger. I want to see you more and more, and I feel more and more embarrassed when I see you. I don't know, maybe I'm wrong, but it seems to me that I fell in love with you. And I decided that it's time to tell you about it, otherwise I'll just stand silently on the sidelines.

I have one biggest and most important secret in my life. You are my favorite boy - now you know my secret! How you will deal with him is up to you, I understand that you will do as your heart feels. And I do not pretend to anything, I just want to say that I have long lost my appetite and restful sleep. You have become so special and important for me, even necessary! When you smile, it seems to me that my head starts to feel a little dizzy. All because you are the cutest, the funniest, the strongest and the bravest. Now my heart beats much faster, and all my thoughts are occupied with you. I dream that you would reciprocate me, because then my whole world will turn upside down and I will become as happy as I have never been! All I dream about now is to see your affectionate and playful look.

You and I have been best friends for a long time. We spend a lot of time together. We walk together, watch interesting films together, talk about everything in the world, laugh, make fun, fight sometimes. I feel very good with you always, very fun, warm and comfortable. I can no longer imagine my life without you, you have become an integral part of my every day. Millions of spoken words, millions of cups of tea drunk, millions of jokes, millions of infinitely beautiful minutes. But, not so long ago, everything has changed dramatically. Now everything is different. When you are near, I increasingly want to touch you, kiss you. I'm jealous of other girls. And you know what I think? I love you! I am very afraid to admit this to you, because I cannot know for sure what is happening in your heart. But, I still decided on this and I really, really hope that my feelings will be mutual.

I want to confess my feelings to you today, and maybe this is not very common for girls, but I plucked up the courage and did it. I have long and hopelessly in love with you, the coolest boy on earth. And even now, not knowing your feelings for me at all, I'm still very happy about it. Because love makes a person more beautiful, I now notice beautiful things that I didn’t even pay attention to before, everything is completely different now. And I know for sure that no one, since I am not able to love you, with all my heart, absolutely disinterestedly, without demanding or expecting anything in return. After all, despite your answer, your eyes will not stop captivating me, I will not stop liking your smile, I will not stop thinking about you twenty-four hours a day. All I need is to see you cheerful and happy.

My sweetest, most desired boy, I fell in love with you so much that I no longer have the strength to keep it in myself. I myself did not realize and did not understand when there was that moment in which I changed so much. But at the same moment of my change, two large white wings grew behind me, with one wave of which, I fly into the sky. I know for sure that guys like you don't exist anymore. You are like my own magnet, I am drawn to you as soon as I wake up, and, falling asleep, I think only of you alone, my dear. I'm sorry if I seem too bold to you, but please take this girl's confession seriously and do not laugh at my feelings. For me, this is very, very important. After all, I love you with all my bright and inexperienced soul. I am very afraid to be disappointed. You filled my head so much that it became difficult for me to study, I felt like eating, and now I can’t sleep at all. I love you.

Recently, some miracles happen to me, as if magic broke into my life. I am so happy that I want to turn into a butterfly and soar to heaven. Such lightness, such inspiration, very strange, unknown to me and very unusual feelings. And it was you who was to blame, because it was you, the most beautiful boy in the world, who made my life change. It was you who was able to paint my world with bright colors, it was thanks to you that wings grew behind my back. You are so cool, funny, smart, interesting and brave. I have never met anyone who could be better than you. And now it's time to reveal my feelings to you. Because it has already become very difficult for me to keep it in myself and cope alone. I am very worried about what your answer will be, because a lot depends on your answer. But, there is one thing that will remain in me, no matter what you answer me - this is my strong love for you.

***

Today I will write my wish on a piece of paper and burn it. And I have one desire, that you reciprocate this bold confession of mine. I want to confess to you that you are the best boy on earth, you have become a close and dear person to me. You are like a ray of gentle, warm sun lit up my life and my every day. You give me happiness, you give me laughter, you give me the most interesting and most pleasant moments. Thank you for this. Today the day has come when I will tell you that I can no longer be just your friend, because I have long and strongly wished for more. I want to be your girlfriend because I love you. Today I will write on a piece of paper: I love my boy, and I want us to always be together, and for him to reciprocate! It is up to you to decide what you will give me, the fulfillment of my dream, or the pain of disappointment and tears. All in your hands!

***

I fell in love with you with a very strange love, you seem to have grown to my soul, become a part of me, and it’s not that it’s hard for me to be without you, I can’t even breathe without you - I start to suffocate. You and I have become one, and I am one hundred percent sure that you are my soul mate on this earth. I am sure that my love for you will be eternal, all because love has no end. I am sure that you can make me the happiest, you are already doing. You shed a bright light of love and tenderness on my days. Now every morning I wake up thinking about you, and every night I go to sleep thinking about you. You penetrated into my soul, into my heart, into my blood and captured me all. Now my heart belongs only to you, my beloved and the best boy in the world. I love you. I can not live without you. I want to be always by your side. I want to be the one and only for you.

***

My dear boy, today is a special and very important day for me. After all, it was today that I decided to confess my feelings to you, to tell you, without hiding, about what worries me very much, about what excites me for a very long time. I don’t know how to write beautiful words, but when I wake up in the middle of the night, because I dreamed about you, and I lie and think about you for a long time, I understand that all this is not just like that. When you come up to me, I start to get very embarrassed, I lose the power of speech, I blush, and I understand that this is also not just like that. In the evening, I look forward to the next day, because after an hour I start to miss you very, very much, and this is also not just like that. I decided today to confess not only to you, but also to myself what I am very scared and excited to admit. But, this can no longer continue, because the feelings that live inside me rebel and want to go out. I love you, I love you very much!

***

My dear boy, the most beloved in the whole wide world, the best, the smartest, the most beautiful, the most cheerful. Today, my feelings cannot be limited to the space inside me, they are torn out, they want to fly and spin. I love you so much! I love everything about you: your eyes, your hair, your smile, your laugh. I love your jokes, I love your thoughts. I love you all very much, my dearest and closest. You were able to make my life a little better, now everything that happened in it before has become a little happier, a little more interesting, a little brighter. It is very important to me that you answered me in return, that you love me too. This makes me truly happy. I don’t know what else you can wish for, because I have everything a girl needs to be happy. And most importantly, I have you and it's so wonderful!

***

My dear boy, my beloved, the only one! How long I have been waiting for you, how grateful I am to fate that I met you on my life path! I have never met a more beautiful and sweeter person in my life! Only you helped me to believe in real feelings, only before you I opened my soul and entrusted you with all its secret corners and hiding places. Only you know what is going on in my soul, I stretch out my bare heart in my palm in front of you and give it to you forever! I will never forget our first, such a tender and touching kiss, your look, your lips, your strong hands, your touch. They excite my blood, and from excitement I hear the beating of my heart. I want to confess to you my feelings, because I don’t have the strength to keep it in myself anymore, there’s no point in being silent. My boy, kitten, I love you, I live by you, I breathe you, I admire you, every minute of my time, I think only about you!

Having met you, my gentle, pure soul and heart, dear boy, I seemed to be in a garden, in a rose garden of love, which is fragrant with aromas of tenderness that eat into the soul forever. And this magical aroma will never disappear from the corners of the heart, it will never be forgotten and will not disappear from memory. It will leave a mark for life, but it will never be repeated. Only once in a lifetime can you feel it. And this time it happened. I am bewitched, I am enchanted, I am in love. Your charm is endless, your voice is divine, your smile is insanely beautiful, your gaze pierces so through and through that there is no chance not to fall in love with you. You are the universe of my perception, you are my world, you are the ideal, you are my idol! I admire you, my feelings are growing every day, my feelings are also gaining momentum, and it would seem that there is a limit to everything, but no, not in this case. There is no limit to my love. It will never be. He is not. There is you, me and our love.

***

I want to turn back time and go to the day when we met. Remember and scroll through your head, every minute, every second, every moment of our meeting. It was a great, incomparable feeling that now, right now, something incredibly important is happening for both of us. Something clearly happened between us, it's so hard to explain in simple words, but I'll try. I understood the meaning of the expression: "wings have grown." It was the state of inspiration that I felt next to you, like a bird, my soul flies when I think about you. And I think about you all the time. The entire ether of my time is filled with you, all my attention is only for you, everything that I can feel and feel is for you, my dear boy. I thank you for every pleasant minute you gave me. In general, stop beating around the bush. It's time to dot the i's. I want to confess to you. I love you!

***

Before meeting you, it seemed to me that there were no real, strong, self-confident males left, but you completely convinced me of this and showed that a girl should be weak and defenseless. You taught me to trust you, your choice and decision, and I am very grateful for that. My beloved boy, I will never tire of repeating that I love you very much, you are the real and only meaning of my life, which I will never give up. Only next to you I feel complete, alive and very happy. It is with great pleasure that I am going to you on a date every time, and every time I get excited as if this is our first meeting. I love to watch you rush to me, a little excited, with a bouquet of flowers and a charming smile. After you take me home in the evening, I immediately begin to dream about the next meeting and look forward to it. And there is a reason for that. I love you!

***

It seems to me that not all girls can say that they are as happy as I am. The reason for such happiness is the most beautiful, most intelligent and talented boy, with whom I am simply madly in love. Ever since we ran into you on the street by accident, my life has literally been turned upside down. Now I constantly think about you, miss you and plan our new date. The time spent with you is always not enough for me, because no matter how much we are together, it seems to me that only one minute has passed. Thank you so much for giving me the feeling of a blooming and very warm spring, which will literally be in my soul, even among gray everyday life, rainy weather and winter cold. Only your hands can hug so gently and tightly at the same time, only in your hands I want to be around the clock, thank you for that, my love.

***

My sweet baby, my boy, my affectionate angel, I want to give you the most precious thing I have - a declaration of love and a desire to make you happy! I can't live without you, I need you like air. Without you, I'm just a little man in this world, and with you I'm in seventh heaven with happiness. When you are around, I feel that you need me just as much as I need you. Don't think that when you're not around, I don't think about you. When you are far away, I love you hundreds of thousands of times more. I think about you all the time and I love you very much. We found each other among a million, and now we are two halves of one big heart. If you don't think so, then I won't be able to live anymore, because the heart can't only beat halfway. I can't imagine myself without your smile, without your eyes, without your kisses, without your hands. You are my happiness, my soul, my joy! I love you!

***

When a star falls from the sky, I make a wish. I have one desire and for one person, for you, my boy. I ask heaven that the feeling that I feel for you never ends, that it lives in me forever and only gains strength. So that you feel the same and our love lasts forever. I live for this, for the sake of our meetings, touches, for the sake of our future with you. The whole meaning of my life is you! I fall asleep and think of you! I wake up and think of you! I sleep at night and smile because I dream about you. When you are near, a light burns inside me, I like its insanely cozy warmth, and the way it warms me. I feel comfortable with you when you hug me or when you just smile. You are my little world, which even the whole universe cannot replace. I love you and that says it all.

***

Recently, some very strange things have started to happen to me, I have become very distracted, I constantly fly in the clouds, I can’t see anything, I can’t hear anything and I can’t concentrate on anything. Do you know, my dear boy, what caused all this? It is because of you that I have become like this, because I can’t think of anything else except my most beloved, most beautiful and most wonderful boy. You take up so much space in all my thoughts that I just don’t have time to think about anything else. Despite all this, I'm just happy, because only next to you can I feel such an upliftment, so much happiness and joy, like never before. I love you very much, my dear, and I am ready to repeat these very warm beautiful words every day just to see your most wonderful smile in the world. Thank you, my love, for making me so happy!

***

Among the thousands of random passers-by in the gray crowd, my eyes met yours and I realized that I was gone forever. That depth, beauty and sensuality that I saw in your eyes captured me and never let go. My dear, I am happy that then I was able to consider you, and you, too, could not pass by. Let our love story last for many more years, our feelings become stronger day by day, and that light that shines in our eyes does not fade away. I constantly want to breathe the same air with you, hold your hand and look at the same stars. There are probably no words that could fully contain what I feel about you, so I'll just say that I love you very much. Among a thousand eyes your are the most dear, among a thousand hands your warmest and among the thousand boys that I have met in my life - you are the only one to whom I gladly give my heart!

Mar. Wednesday, 24th, 2012 at 1:41 PM

The other day I had a frank conversation with a childhood friend. He called from the capital late in the evening to “complain about life”: his next relationship with a woman ended with her turning off all phones and refusing to communicate with him. A merry fellow, a joker, a pleasant-looking 45-year-old successful business man breathed in confusion into the phone, sniffing offendedly: “I’m serious about her! .. But we’re not children! ... Well, yes, I wanted sex with her, but how can it be without him? I spent the whole evening walking around with him and mentally, as it were, continued the dialogue ... And then I decided to write this letter to him. I think it will help many men of "transitional age" to understand their (so obvious for women) mistakes. It would seem that everything is simple ... But in my practice I again and again encounter the same mistake of some men of "mature age". .. And I understand that it can be forgivable for youngsters, it is perceived shockingly from a mature man!
I hope this open letter will help them understand their mistake in relationships with women. There is profanity in the text, but ... you can’t throw words out of the song ;))) I apologize for my "bad French"!

Hello! For some reason, our conversation with you yesterday does not go out of my head.

I am mentally scrolling through some dialogues with you, and therefore I decided to arrange everything in a letter.

I think you misbehave with women. And if you do not realize this, then you will step on the same rake again and again.

As far as I know you, you are a very sentimental and kind person. You are caring in your own way, you want to make everyone around you celebrate! :) But you cover up your sincerity (at least in relations with women) with bravado and cavalry pressure, hussar jokes in the style of Rzhevsky and sentences “Madame, let me kick you!” What for? Why? I don’t know ... Perhaps there were episodes in your life when some young lady (or even your mother) didn’t understand or appreciate you ... And this is where such mock cynicism comes from ... I immediately caught him in communication with you when we met in Moscow then for the first time in 25 years since high school graduation...

But I am a psychologist. And so I can understand the motives of such male behavior. But many women sometimes cannot figure out their feelings ... how can they understand men's "inversions"? Hence the conclusion:
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With cavalry attacks, you have a chance to attract into your life an exclusively marketplace aunt who will perceive you adequately and ingenuously, she will joke like a soldier herself, and - having healed you with water - will drag you into a bunk to fuck ... Do you want this? I doubt it ... Finding one like this is easy, I think. You are drawn to others.

An adequate single woman (especially in our age category) perceives a man primarily by how comfortable she will be with him. Not a day, not two - but a long time ... maybe the rest of our lives ... And the older we get, the more we want harmony and comfort. Agree.

Both men and women of our age category, looking at themselves in the mirror in the morning, sadly state the fact of aging of our body. And although our soul, perhaps at 45 years old, is still the same “berry”, the body noticeably betrays itself. Therefore, when a mature man invites a mature woman on the first (second or even third) date to go to bed ... not having time to get to know each other properly ... this, to put it mildly, drives into some kind of embarrassment (to put it mildly, I repeat). Because sex is no longer so desirable as harmony and comfort. And this is by no means a contradiction! You can somersault in bed like a youngster - for days ... but at the same time you really want to wake up with the same man later in the morning ... and even live together ... more than once or twice ... At our age, you already think not so much about the quality of sex, but about what is the quality of life? And who will we have to grow old next to ...

The difference between women and men is that a man can only fall in love with the woman who initially causes his sexual appetite! And a woman can sexually lust for a man only AFTER she has fallen in love with certain human qualities of him... Do you catch the difference?

Men: SEX --> LOVE

Women: LOVE --> SEX

And never otherwise! Otherwise, there are no feelings at all. But there are either complexes, or a naked calculation, or a drunken head ... And do you know why such an alignment is important for both sides? Because both men and women are afraid of defeat! A man is afraid that he will not be at his best in bed later, and therefore it is important for him to immediately check this, to make sure of some kind of guarantee of his success (like if it doesn’t work out, then he won’t build a relationship) ... And a woman is afraid that a man turns out to be unreliable and leaves her after sex, so it is so important for her to check many human qualities in her chosen one so that she can count on a long-term harmonious relationship ...

Both men and women often lie to themselves and to each other... Whoever is smarter wins this game. If an alliance with a man is important for a woman, she will agree to sex and then with all sorts of tricks she will keep the man near her all the time. If the union is more important for a man, he patiently “spuds” this flower bed, hoping sooner or later to pick the most beautiful flower on it. But both fall into traps :)

Why am I?

If you really want to build a long-term relationship with a decent woman, then you still need to restrain your cavalry manners. Believe me! Do not rush things. Sometimes it’s really easier to hire a call lady than to mess things up with a decent woman! If you are already so much concerned with the contents of your scrotum, and not what a woman will think of you.

At 45, a normal woman cannot be surprised by any member, believe me! And for some reason, some men think that their penis is almost the only thing they can offer their beloved. Alas ... as there are a lot of long-legged pussy-tits around, so there are a lot of fuckers around (sorry). Both of them, unfortunately, have one common drawback: they suffer from the absence of the brains you value so much...

Answer yourself: what else, besides your penis and an important deputy crust, can you offer a worthy woman (smart, self-sufficient, pretty, sexy and able to take care of her man)? And if you answer with more than one or two words, then there is a chance to arrange your personal life. This I guarantee you! Just the next time you meet a woman with whom you want to communicate for more than one evening, try to let her know that you are for her exactly the “stone reliable wall” that women so often look for. And I'm sure you will get EVERYTHING: sex to the point of being “unsatisfactory” as in youth, and a spectacular girlfriend at social events, and delicious dinners at home, and care, and tenderness, and understanding, and even a wise adviser in some matters!

Hugs and sincerely wish you happiness!

I'm so afraid that you're just a careless dream
And I wake up and you're not with me.
But even if so, you will always be in my heart,
And we will fly in my dreams, with you.

In the meantime, we are together in this world,
Thanks to you, my whole life is like heaven.
You give me wings of happiness every day,
And I beg you, don't go anywhere.

Again winter is circling in a strange way,
Some wild superstition
And we go to countries
With an invented sign.

Love is different:
Chocolate ... We have it strawberry,
You know I'm not an infection
You know, not metropolitan.

I love a little with sadness -
Winter without snow again
But still I love and let
With you I will accept the rain under the sky.

Play with me for caresses in pursuit
Joke and laugh, lie with your eyes.
I'm like a squirrel that takes from the palms
Nuts, seeds and crackers.

Whether from a glass, or from a tin mug,
I want us to drink life without end.
In the mirror surface of a Christmas tree toy -
Let our two faces be reflected.

My beloved man, I want to tell you -
As soon as you leave, I start to wait...
I dream about meeting, about how you will come.
I keep thinking, wondering - how do you live without me? ..
I'm very lonely when you're not around
But when you come, hug, give me flowers,
And the sun will smile and the birds will sing
Peace and comfort will immediately fall on the heart.
My beloved man, I will only open the door for you -
I don't need anything, I'm happy with you!

Like two wings of an angel with you
We are inseparable, like two in one.
Married by both God and fate,
We live with you one day after day.

Beloved husband, fate is a true gift,
Thank you very much for you!
You for the fact that my character is bad,
You endure understanding and loving!

I'll tell you about how big the world is
And how the seas flow into the oceans.
How my spirit penetrated your dreams
And how hurricanes rage in my soul.

I'll show you beautiful places
Where waterfalls lash and sing drops
Where dry winds circling
And waltz dancing snow blizzards.

I'll write you a poem or an ode
I'll give you culture shock.
Will you tell me that I'm sentimental?
Okay, I'll write you a poem.

Today the blizzard is snowing,
And my soul is at peace.
After all, next to this difficult life
You are my beloved and dear.

I'm not afraid of trouble with you,
We can overcome them.
Sunsets and sunrises with you
Help to sing the song of life.

I still remember with a smile
That moment when I said yes to you.
And every day, in your hands I melt,
And I know for sure "together forever."

And even after months and years
My love will not fade.
And in our "movie", episodes are waiting for us,
In which we will fly away from happiness.

I remember how you gave me
White snow, yellow leaf, lilac color.
How he whispered to me, shouted, said:
"There is no more beautiful than you in the universe."

All wild flowers are mine.
Summer rain and spring puddles
Warm beam and those clouds in the distance ...
How did you know that I need it?

How do you know that I love the light
And I like the rainbow in the sky?
In the morning you give me a fresh bouquet -
Sunrise and swallows twitter.

Blue lakes in the mountains
The scent of cornflowers over the meadows.
Your gift - in gray evenings
Or in the velvet of moss underfoot.

For me - the dance of two moths
And the shy whisper of the trees.
But your main gift is love...
I appreciate it very much, trust me.

My beloved, unique,
The man of my dreams, dreams,
Like the air I need
Always be by my side.

Friends, please do not judge me strictly. I guess I'm wrong, and this letter should not see the world, and the world should not see this letter. Perhaps it should be written and burned. Perhaps it did not even have the right to be written. But I do what I do. And I can't bring myself to do otherwise. This is a letter to an ex-boyfriend. It is written as a cry from the heart, as a farewell kiss, as an unspoken hope. It is written in the past, which has no future. In general, here is actually my letter to a guy about love, which will not fall into an envelope and will not fly to the addressee.

Hello my friend!

Wow!

Only with this phrase can I convey how much I miss you.

So I am writing this letter to you and I know that it will not change anything at all, it is too late to change anything. But I can no longer carry all this pain and aching melancholy. And now I'm pouring it all out on paper. Although you probably won't even read this letter...

I love you madly! I love you forever and ever. Even the day I asked you to stay friends, I loved you with every fiber of my being.

Why did I do it? Then I felt like I was doing the right thing. I thought I didn't deserve you. I thought that our relationship was becoming obsolete and I wanted to end it on a good note. God, how wrong I was! Alas, this mistake can no longer be corrected, although I regretted what I had done thousands and millions of times already.

I dream about you very often, and every morning I don’t want to wake up to prolong these dreams at least a little.

Now it seems to me that the reason for our separation is my fear, my insecurity and my haste. You have always been a mystery to me, a puzzle. But no matter how hard I tried to figure you out, to get closer to you, I couldn’t. I wanted to melt into our love, but your incredible mystique made me think that there was some kind of wall that I could not get over. And I gave up. I did not have enough strength, patience, and I refused our love.

The strangest thing is that when I asked you not to hold me and let me go, I desperately wished that you would not let me go ...

And yet I continued to love you. So I suggested that we remain friends. After all, you can see a friend, you can touch him, you can communicate, and you can continue to admire him.

And I loved just looking at you! You are so beautiful, brutal, unusual. When I looked at you, I felt tenderness growing in me. Yes, tenderness! She gradually grew and became stronger and stronger, like an avalanche. And I really wanted to convey all of it to you, so that you bathe in it, so that you are happy. But I couldn't do it.

I still remember many moments of our love. And for me this memory is worth its weight in gold.

I remember our crazy train ride. I remember how your friends and girlfriends teased us. I was embarrassed, but at the same time I didn't care, because I was happy from our crazy love.

I remember a bouquet of cornflowers. It was the most beautiful bouquet in my life!

I remember how we fooled around. I remember your smile, your jokes that drove me crazy.

And one of the most valuable memories is our night under the starry sky.

I remember how we met. It's impossible to forget. Although ... Maybe you forgot. But I don't blame you, I don't blame you! It is my fault. The fact that she refused all this.

I remember even the most ordinary things, because they ceased to be ordinary when you were around.

I remember our walks after parting. And how desperately I wanted to bring you back, but I couldn't.

And also music. The music you listened to was not the music I liked to listen to. But at the same time, I admired your musical tastes! By the way, I still fell in love with a few tunes from you. And when I listen to them, your image immediately pops up in front of me.

Now I caught myself thinking: I don’t even have a single photo where we are together. I wonder if you have such a photo ... I would like to have one. Not to mourn, no. In order to remember our happiness with a smile, looking at her.

We remained friends, but we were already drifting apart. We don't see each other like we used to. You are in another city, I have my own family ... We very rarely call each other. In the main, in order to congratulate on the next holiday.

Or maybe you want to reduce our communication to nothing? Am I letting you do this? If that's the case, then I wouldn't want to impose on you. I did not value our love, but I value our friendship. However, if she bothers you, I must let go of everything, I must let you go and not disturb you anymore.

I will finish this letter and call you. And I'll know how you feel about our communication.

But even if ... if this is our last conversation, I will have happy memories of OUR time and endless love for you, and I will not say a word about them after this letter. Nobody will know. Only my heart will know.

I love you.

Let this letter be to the past, which has no future, but it has become a little easier for me.

Thank you for everything and be happy! I promise that your name will be in my every prayer.

I'm sorry if anyone was confused by my letter to an ex-boyfriend.

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